Let me start off by saying that I love blogging. I love having a creative outlet, I love being able to write about things I want to write about. I’m lucky enough to be able to work as an editor for a day job, as well as doing freelance writing, but obviously I’m given certain topics, and blogging gives me full creative freedom.
For me, blogging has never been about getting freebies or going to events. I love the community, and the people I’ve met and talked to as a result of blogging, but blogging was a way for me to write and express myself. In fact, I’ve never received a product for review, or been invited to any event. For me, that’s okay, but it becomes very hard not to start comparing myself to other bloggers, who have more followers, better photos, amazing collaborations etc…
One thing I’ve noticed recently, and as a 28-year-old, I find it funny to even be typing it, but I feel like I’m ‘old’ for a blogger – especially a relatively new blogger. I’ve actually had a blog since I was about 23, but it was more of an online diary for me rather than something I shared around, it’s only been the last year or so that I’ve chosen to share my posts and work hard to engage on social media. And I love it, I really do. I get a jolt of joy every time I see I have a comment, or a new follower or someone shares my post.
There are SO many incredible blogs out there, so many inspiring people wanting to give their thoughts and opinions on every topic under the sun, and it’s absolutely amazing that they can have a space on the internet where they can do that. But I do have moments where I think, “What’s the point?” – does anyone read my blog? Would anyone notice if I never posted again? (This isn’t a solo pity party, it’s just how it is!)
The blogging game
I was having a conversation on Twitter earlier with Maria about the follow/unfollow game on Instagram, and it genuinely made me a little sad, because I feel like a lot of the fun has gone out of blogging and sharing, because of the desire to get more likes, more followers etc – I’ll hold my hands up, I’m totally guilty of spending hours trying to get the perfect photo to keep it in line with the theme of my Instagram, which seems ridiculous when I type it – and yet I lose followers (and yes, I notice!) if I post a picture that doesn’t “fit” – even if the photo itself is a zillion times better than the others!
I want to carry on blogging, because as I said, I love it; I love writing, I love creating and I love reading other people’s blogs, but I’m going to try and find the joy in it again, not compare myself and my blog to all the others out there and write and share what I want to!