Something Scary


Yesterday I did something that completely terrified me, but that also lifted a huge weight from me; I handed in my notice.

I’ve been struggling recently and dreamt of doing something I love, but worry/fear/money always held me back. I have been in this role for a few months, and while it seemed like the perfect job for me when I got it, as the days went on, I realised it just wasn’t right for me.

A few years ago, I was offered a place on a PGCE course to teach secondary English. After a lot of thought, I turned it down as I didn’t feel ready for it, and I knew it was such a huge commitment, but now I feel that teaching is something I’m ready for.

For someone that loves planning, I don’t have a plan set in stone, and that scares the hell out of me. I’m going to do some nannying and try and get work as a teaching assistant, as well as working freelance as and where I can. That doesn’t stop me wondering… What if I fail? What if I don’t get a job? What if… But I can’t spend my life thinking what if, otherwise I’d never do anything that scared me and nothing would ever change. Plus I’ve just turned our spare room at home into a study (above photo) so this way I get to use it!

I was wondering, what’s the scariest/bravest thing you’ve ever done? Whether something in your career, or something you’ve overcome personally,  if anyone wants to share, I’d love to hear 🙂

  • Last fall I entered my first poetry slam. Sharing my spoken word in front of a huge crowd on stage in the midst of bright lights made me the most nervous wreck I ever recall being. But I did it! I did it to break open my comfort zone and I did it to step into sharing an art form that I love to do (but had really only done it by myself). After that first slam I did my second one this past spring, and my third just a few days ago. Each time it has gotten easier and I’ve grown less nervous. And while I don’t enter to win I did receive 2nd place at this last one and won $50 🙂 Bonus 🙂

    • That’s amazing! As scary as it can be, its so rewarding once you’ve done something and lime you’ve said, it gets easier each time! And well done on placing – great bonus!